Letters to God – Part 6: Unconditional Love

source: http://thelongestisland.blogspot.co.il/2011/03/check-out-bernard-schweizers-blog-post.html

It seems like ages ago, but only 12 day have passed since my son gave me this lesson. We were driving home from his weekly treatment, and he was in a very bad mood, with no explainable reason. Probably because we said no to something he wanted. Yea, I think it was that.

As we were driving down the road he started saying bad things, and hitting my chair, so I stopped at a bus station and sat with him there to understand what is happening. He was so mad! And then he started crying, because he could not control himself. He said he was bad, and that he made me mad with no reason. We cried together for some time, and I told him that I love him always. That he can be angry at me, and its OK. And that sometimes I can also be angry at him, and that this is also OK. We are humans, we are full of feelings that we can’t fully control, and anger is one of them.

But that day I learned about unconditional love. The love you have for your child is like this. No matter how angry you are at him, you still love him. And no matter how angry he is at you, he still loves you.

And yes, I have been angry with you. And a part of me is still angry at you. For all the suffering, for all the sickness, for all the pain.

But that doesn’t mean that I don’t love you.

And even if you do things that I don’t understand, and that make me very angry, there is a reason for everything. But as I am a child, I cannot understand it.

And I know that you love me.

Letters to God – Part 5: Crying

source: http://formybeautifullove.blogspot.co.il/2011/05/poem-6.html

Life is tough. Not only having to deal with what we have but also being always afraid of the unknown, and of the future and what it will bring us. Knowing that we don’t know a thing.

Trying to maintain a normal life with this burden you gave us, or as a good manager would say, this “challenge”. But we have more in our life, and they need our attention, our love, our caring. The world doesn’t stop because we have to take care of things. It keeps going and we must play catch every single day.

We think that life changes us, but we are a tough nut to crack. And even knowing that the most basic things in life cannot be taken for granted, the small details of life make us angry. And this makes us even angrier.

And sometimes we just want to cry.

And this is OK.

Because sometimes this is the only thing that we can do.